The Forbidden Queen

“If you ask me what I came to do in this world, I, an artist, will answer you: I am here to live out loud.” ― Émile Zola

To call Maxi a seductive drag-queen would be an understatement of the lowest sort, he is a timeless beauty with a spark of femininity and glamour that cannot be manufactured.

I remember the first time we met in art class at the Academy of Art University in San Francisco; while tempting to contour a nude model in class I was less interested in the nudity of art, but rather…him. Art transcended its meaning as a mirror reflection of some fantasy, but it revealed itself through him in the manner that God has implemented in his soul. I’d dare say he is a modern day Marchesa Luisa Casati. Anaïs Nin beautifully said,“ I am so thirsty for the marvelous that only the marvelous has power over me. Anything I can not transform into something marvelous, I let go. Reality doesn’t impress me. I only believe in intoxication, in ecstasy, and when ordinary life shackles me, I escape, one way or another. No more walls.” Maxi left an ineffable impression on me that’s simply marvelous.

Prior to conversating with Maxi and understanding the meaning of absolute glamour from his prospective, I spent random rainy days on Pier 39 gazing at Alcatraz island. I wondered how Frank Morris and Allen West swam across on that misty night. Inevitably the class was required to meet at The Embarcadero where we would sketch from nature. Maxi, seated next to me, pressed lightly on his sketch book revealing the observation of curious birds as they stood tall on the bars of the Ferry Building Market. We stared in silence analyzing the pleasures of nature as if we were under the tutelage of Monet and his friends painting from nature.

We talked briefly about his hispanic background,makeup, then he showed me more of his sketches. Wow, was I astonished. There I was frustrated and pressing hard on the eraser of my pencil and fettering to illustrate the San Francisco Bay Bridge, while he effortlessly was lost in a reverie of profound artifacts. He showed me the power of transformation not only through his character, but his exuberant quality of making you fall in love with all the facets of life.

Minutes passed before different strangers stopped in awe of Maxi, heads were spinning from his bewitching look. I was a nervous reck from all the attention, I’m sure it’s his usual cup of tea, and if the spot light was on us for much longer I was ready to rush to a near by corner to watch from without. However Maxi attracted all eyes like a bee to a radiant flower, and with his explosive loving personality radiating love to everyone he is pure perfection in all attributes. Anyone who can embrace transformation,like Maxi, renews himself. Friedrich Nitciche had said, ““The snake which cannot cast its skin has to die. As well the minds which are prevented from changing their opinions; they cease to be mind.”

I salute that spirit in Maxi for embracing transformation in spite of opinions.

Moody June: A Splash of Turquoise and Sky Blue

June is fast approaching, and lets admit the end of April and May has been a heavy hearted energy for all of us. My compassion and prayers goes out to Oklahoma, and Boston. The 15th of April caused serious turmoil also for stock holders, the gold bubble bursted causing investors to lose tremendous amount of money. It’s been such a fiery and explosive couple of months.

A Splash of turquoise and sky blue might just stimulate us to shake off the tension of Serious April and unpredictable May. Lets channel the lively and exuberant energy of June to clear off our busy bee industrial schedules for a social gathering. You deserve it after all, Miss/Mr. social butterfly, a friendly debate over happy hours doesn’t sound too conservative, but briskly enough for a steamy conversation.

Easy on your ignition cruising the city side of town, fearlessly…Moody June…loves a bit of this and that, choose your short destinations with caution; indecisiveness has never been a sexy gesture. We want all Adventures to be mind blowing, as long as it holds a meaningful purpose. Sprinkle on the colors of Serenity and delight in this hot,social,and novelty June.

“Best Times Ahead!”

Image Courtesy of Instaglamxo

I’m Haunted by Alexander McQueen!

Alexander McQueen Fall/Winter 2013/2014 suspended all thought processes from my analytical mind. The baroque frescoed halls of the Opera Comique was haunted with super models seeming as if they were white and dark apparitions floating before our eyes, as we watch from without. There were probably arched necks hissing at these “foreign entities” swallowing their space. I’ve never been fond of ghosts creeping around any setting, I’d storm right out the door sending a chill vibration through everyone, but this collection has me wishing I was a white apparition crushing my energy into the setting seen in Alexander McQueen’s white and menacing under tone gowns. Beyond words, it’s simply ethereal. The inspiration, is about troubled nuns, mysterious angels, Queen Elizabeth I– and the Virgin Queen. I’ll be that mysterious angel, Alexander McQueen, I have been a fervent lover of your collection if you know what I mean!

What was Sarah Burton_current designer for Alexander McQueen_ trying to achieve with this “modern” collection? Maybe, we are just opening up to the New Age Fashion! Where spirituality and materialism are an Integration of Oneself! Oooh we can only learn from folks who have come to pass, and still breath heavily their left legacies.Their souls might have departed, but they are free to be wherever, and whenever we call on them for inspiration and guidance.

The Rich, Beautiful, and Famous!


I’ve been reflecting, not spending 7 days in meditation like the infamous philosopher Rene Descretez’s, II Meditations, concerning the nature of the human mind, but out of curiosity “Why woman aspire to become Fashion Models”? Is it the “words” that are associated with it? Bewitching Beauty, “Fashion put it all on me” and “Click,click, Flash” fellow fashionista Ciara bedazzles us with. Celebrities and parties are endlessly rejoicing in Great Gatsby’s Revolution, the kind of Glamourous Life that Fergie advices us to aspire to. However way it’s seen, hey I’m convinced I’d want to be apart of the rich,beautiful,and famous.

But what happened to the beauty that William Shakespeare seen in his mistress? He is after all a man of great eloquence and eye for beauty.
He said, ”
My mistress’ eyes are nothing like the sun;
Coral is far more red than her lips’ red:
If snow be white, why then her breasts are dun;
If hairs be wires, black wires grow on her head.
I have seen roses damask’d, red and white,
But no such roses see I in her cheeks;
And in some perfumes is there more delight
Than in the breath that from my mistress reeks.
I love to hear her speak, yet well I know
That music hath a far more pleasing sound.
I grant I never saw a goddess go:
My mistress, when she walks, treads on the ground.
And yet, by heaven, I think my love as rare
As any she belied with false compare.

To him his mistress’ beauty is rare, raw, and the realism of her sensuality fueled their romance.

The feeling of a lover,honestly, glorifying in your unique qualities does leave a permanent mark of admiration that reciprocates between the two of you. However, those words aren’t meant for you to exploit and genuinely believe that you have an advantage over others.

Magazine covers mesmerizes us with faces considered Ideal, according to the Encyclopedia of Modern Beauty, when really modeling is about height, and proportions; so where does iconic beauty fit in to the equation? The glamourous Kim Kardashian hasn’t been featured in Vogue Magazine, is it because she is not beautiful? Obviously, the politics of the industry plays a major role in how these “beautiful faces” will be in demand.

Still…What really justifies beauty from a modeling agency’s prospective? No one can convince me that he has no physical flaws. I’m a self declared analyst and observer of mankind’s physical structures,and there is no specie known to nature that holds no imperfections, or created without an opposite. Even fruits have this insecurity; If your the sweetest peach in the world, there will be someone who hates sweet peaches.

Love yourself as you are because that is the ultimate beauty designed by the great architect himself-God.

Detail Decisions

Black&White closets

B&W Closet

Should I wear the red shoes or black shoes, which would go well with this dress? Being torn between two options of items is a common dilemma faced when it comes to dressing. There comes a point when one is torn between two items and they have to decide on one. Perhaps it’s not between two shoes  necessarily –  that’s probably a shoes-type-of-girl’s personal headache,  maybe your a guy and it’s a  tie, or a shirt or some other item.

A lot goes into dressing up. First, the thinking begins – don’t tell me am the only one with an imaginary version of my closet in my head! I start browsing through options of what I am going to wear ahead of time if am aware of an event am attending or am trying to create a certain look.  Mind you, this initial process takes place all in thought.

It’s no wonder when I am facing my closet, like most women after creating Mt. Icanfindanythingtowear, I find my self frustrated and whining out the common phrase, ” I have nothing to wear”. It never fails!

Then there’s the second push, a sincere effort to find something because to be honest there is a lot to wear.  And to be honest if for every time we think we don’t have anything to wear, we actually bought more clothes, we would be short of having a hording intervention.

So, we try and here is when the details matter most.  In the second attempt , I don’t just throw stuff on, run to the mirror, access the ensemble and then toss it if it’s not meeting my vision. A much more analytically approach to dressing is awakened in this round. Questions such as , ” How can I make this dress more elegant, or what jewelry will add the right pizzazz with this piece?” are suddenly explored.

It really comes down to the details of details, these decisions  sometimes leaves one with such a close tie and here’s when most women enlist their male companions or fellow female friends for further scrutiny of which will be the best fit. I know the commercial of the female asking her significant other, ” honey, which shoes?” and him looking widely lost because they all look the same is suddenly playing in your head, no?

Anyhow, we all have reached this dichotomous point before, some find themselves here often and others less. Which are you? Do have a mental debate outlining why you should wear, say item A over B? Or are you one who would rather run to someone and have them pick something? How is this decision made? What is the process like?

Here’s a few things to consider if you find yourself in such a fashion quandary, these are my ABC detail decision breaker.

(A) Do I want to do the norm or do I want to be experimental and stand out?

Let me explain.  When you’re torn between two fashion items, if you have to pick quickly, you’ll pick your default, not-out-there option if your a minimalist. If your not then you’ll pick the latter. Lets say it’s a multicolored dress with some black detailing and your deciding to wear a black shoes or a leopard print shoes.  If you answer the question and decide you want to do the norm and not-stand out, then you’ll pick the black shoes so as not to stand-out and besides the dress has some black in it so your playing up the color. If you answer I want to stand out then you know which you’ll pick. Audience is certainly a factor in this choice as well. What is the event, who’s presence will you be gracing? Then again decided on the question, ” Do I want to do the norm or do I want to be experimental and stand out?”

(b) Which, between which ever two option I am torn between, is most true to my personal style?

It’s essential that one dresses in clothing that exerts personal confidence. We feel the way we dress. If you chose something that isn’t necessarily you simply because your trying to fit in, then you may not be comfortable. Let’s say your not too fond of garish, gaudy jewelry but your torn between wearing such a piece and something much more subtle. Well, which is more you? Do not wear that huge, abstract necklace if people starring at it or making it a point of conversation makes you feel awkward.  First rule in dressing: where what you want to wear and wear what you are!

(C) Can I find a middle ground between the two options?

This last option is crucial if you’re severely confused and undecided. If you really think that lace top looks hot with the fitted, turquoise sheer skirt yet you also like the simple beige shirt then maybe find the best thing between the two.  Ask more questions of yourself to help find a middle ground. What about option “A” do I like most, what is making option “B” equally attractive to me?  What if I choose option “B” and to satisfy my need for texture, which is what the lace was giving me in option “A”, I add texture by carrying a clutch with multiple texture instead, or I put a hair accessory, etc…

It’s best to have a thought-process to go to immediately when torn between items of clothing. Otherwise,  next thing you know time is running out and you have to be dressed and on your way in minutes – and for god’s sake you just can’t decide on anything!

” My theory is that if you look confident you can pull off anything_even if you have no clue what you are doing.” Jessica Alba

Stylish Sana

Once Upon a Time_Coco Chanel

A thing of beauty is a joy forever.
Its loveliness increases; it will never
pass into nothingness …
―John Keats

Masses of people are secretly in love with the woman Chanel adorns in her millenary hats,gemstones, bijouterie and her curvaceous hourglass suites. Her sinuous manner inspires more than just admiration, she is a beauty that’s breathless and full of bliss.

She is one who epitomizes elegance as a way of lifestyle. Mannerism, Seduction, and Simplicity are never out of season. It’s especially delightful to see how Gabrielle Bonleur Chanel started out in this video,” Once Upon a Time” in 1909, at 160 Boulevard Malesherbes Paris. The House of Chanel has clothed many celebrities, of the many, Marchesa Luisa Casti leaves us with a powerful felt presence. Decades have passed, but she still remains a relevant fashion icon. she said, “I want to be a living work of art.” Certainly, Marchesa has set the scale up high for modern celebrities like Lady Gaga, Grace Jones, and if rocking shark teeth around your neck or camouflaging your body in snake skin sounds like a fashion statement, than you might just have what it takes to aspire to Marchesa Casti.

There’s something utterly transcendent about a woman who knows she holds a magnetic allure, and intoxicates us with her Chanel No.5 fragrance spritzed over her little black dress; such awareness turns on even the hardest harded of men into her admirers, and sedates the rest of us to have a lustful desire for her sorcerous appeal. Wo/man Chanel always leaves us inspired!

” Woman are the most perfect dolls to ever be dressed with delight and admiration.” Karl Lagerfeld

Port City Models and Talent: The pioneer mind behind the business


Personality, “It justifies my sybaritic, dynamic, and intuitive self. I’ve always been driven by pragmatic outcomes in my life, ”says Caron Bryan, CEO of Port City Models and Talent, Caron has acquired much success from her modeling agency located in Maine, Boston, New York, and Miami. She admits that the big trick to building your business is, “to find ways to nurture your network of colleagues – consciously. The networks I’ve developed, clients I’ve delighted, no matter what walks of life they are from, I have celebrated the differences and that has boosted my power and felt presence.” Caron has weathered the modeling industry by withstanding the pressures and challenges of the fashion industry and manifesting her goals- in its developing stages-from concept to a renowned market. It took her eight months to design her opulent website. Once she had enough models to promote she then launched it. Her brand has a powerful presence that has created a halo effect and rubbed off onto many clients and models, and continues to generate and sustain its influential and reputational power.

1: I’m quite inspired by your leadership position in the fashion industry. What would you say has prepared you to be in your current position?
Caron: I was introduced to education at an earlier age, inspiration, and incorporated my hobbies into this carrier field. I would want to tell people to be patient, and to have faith in yourself. Biographies have always inspired me, I took them out of the library and spent a lot of times reading them. I also love reading leadership quotes.

2: What do you like most about your job, and is there anything about it that you would change?
Caron: I love that I launched my business with my strong sense of determination. I’m a type a perfectionist. That makes you driven, creative and business oriented. The joy comes in from having a strong belief in myself, and to help people promote themselves.

3: Passion seems to have been the driving force for you, Caron. Have you faced any oppositions in obtaining your success?
Caron: Oh certainly;I began to study my competition. No matter where you are from the power is within you, but I had to deal with the culture and the politics of success. And not be dragged down. I nodded my head and agreed that the politics tends to suppress the “minority” and adheres to a corporate-supremist view, in fact, overcoming those corporate barriers will allow one to achieve their ultimate goal.

Caron’s leadership position in fashion trademarks her superiority of taste, superior service, and compliments the commitment she conveys onto her clientele. She’s had the pleasure of working with many monarchial industry clients: “Sex and The City” major motion pictures-New York, Clint Eastwood’s “Mystic River”-Oscar Wining Film, New York Fashion Week-Runway, American Idol-Judge and Promotional, London World Music Awards-Celeb Red Carpet Interview, and many more impeccable clients.

4:What are the challenges you have faced as an agent in keeping morals strong and goal attainment a priority?

Caron: Getting jobs for models is crucial. However, the challenge is having them show up for auditions. The more quality his/her portfolio is-editorial high fashion- the more chances he/she has of getting the job. In this smaller market I have to be more hands on, and become their guide to increase their chances of booking the job.

I shrugged my head in disbelief. The modeling industry is competitive. Clients seeking models are in constant demand for distinctive features with an incredible vibrancy, yet the model must also have an oddness that conforms to the client’s standards.

5:What is considered a “unique look” that immediately compels your clients to her/his allure/personal magnetism?

Caron: This is a tough one, because each client has his/her own distinct preferences. What I have personally noticed is the contradictions in a model can seem to win my client over. Such as the -conformity to blend in (runway, print, promotional, etc. types), and their individuality to stand out.

6: Are there different challenges when working with volunteers, Caron, versus paid employees/models?

Caron: I get a gently elbow in the rib. “ Eyy volunteering is a great way to get into the business. It tells me how hungry for knowledge or the experience someone is, and their urge to learn about the industry. I’m always honored to help guide those individuals who are grateful, and have an appreciation for everything.

7: From a classical view of social responsibility, Milton Friedman, argues that mangers’ or ceo’s, primary responsibility is to operate the business in the best interest of the stockholders, whose primary concerns are financials. He further explains that when managers use their resources for the good of society, they will have to compensate for that loss by passing it onto consumers/clients through higher prices, or in this case….high booking fees. Would you still engage in social responsibilities without increasing booking fees?

Caron: I make it a priority to engage in social affairs regarding environmental concerns without receiving something in return.

8: How is the agency doing with fundraising, volunteerism, and success with clients that you have assisted?
Caron: It’s doing wonderful, we are actively involved with:
-Cancer Community Center
-Dress for Success

9: What is the agency’s organizational culture like, any core values that employees must conform to? How do you make sure that they maintain this culture?

Caron: The Sheer attractiveness of Port City Models and Talent is definitely its organizational structure and sophistication. I do lead with an omnipotent business approach, which motivates each model towards achievement, and professional recognition. A dominant feature of Port City Models and Talent is the personalized service that lavishes onto each client, and model. Our honesty lights up the eyes of prospective clients, and past clients have commended a vote of confidence in our ability to meet their standards

10: As a fashion student, I’m always interested in learning from successful leaders. What advice can you leave to those inspired by the fashion industry?

Caron: Consider the big picture, in whatever concentration of fashion you take. If it’s going to be a big decision five years from now, and work towards that goal. Except that wrong decisions can happen, and still rise from it. Always see beyond your limitations. As I have mentioned before the power is definitely within you, and not your competitor.

Her words have left an indelible impression on me. There’s something ineffable about her charisma, and ability to be fully engaged in life, and I know those qualities are fine examples of her regal leadership position.